d is taking nate to an obama appearance/rally at a local high school this morning — i’m staying home. i’m totally into obama these days and have even done a bit of volunteering at our local office. but the crowds at things like this, i could lose my mind. d also loves post-season baseball games at our beloved yank stadium, and even though i always have a wonderful time, she has to drag me. it’s just overwhelming.
also, the debate was really depressing and upsetting. if you watched, this exchage should ring a bell:
jb: i am against gay marriage.
sp: me too.
gwen the moderator: great, you both agree on something. let’s move on.
entire audience: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
they are both against equal rights for me and my family. BIG LAUGHS ALL AROUND. the whole rest of the night, i just wanted to squeeze nate and not let him go. i had this weird, paranoid feeling that everyone wanted to take him from me (except d). this issue feels more emotional for me than it ever has. i kept saying i just wish i could sit down with obama and get an honest answer about what he thinks about gay marriage. i want to believe that in his heart, he believes in it, but politically, he can’t go there. i will most likely never know if i’m right, and maybe the real answer would disappoint me. but i went to bed feeling incredibly sad, and definitely unable to attend an obama rally. i do think it’s great that nate is going.
also — i get to go back to sleep!
I'm a Mommy Too! 
We had several years of huge marriage to-do here in MA from right in the time around our daughter’s conception and birth. We went to several rallies at the state house, either pregnant or with babe in arms. I so relate to that visceral fear, that nagging feeling that there are so many people out there that either think your family is evil, or a joke. I quit listening before that joke last night, but if I had heard it, it would have kept me up.
And honestly? I think Obama is fine, and I’ll vote for him, but I do think he is against our marriages in his heart of hearts. I don’t think it’s just political expediency.
By: lyn on October 3, 2008
at 9:38 am
i completely understand and feel the same way…
By: ohchicken on October 3, 2008
at 10:12 am
i felt really…humiliated? they were so smug trying to tell me that my wife and i don’t share the same rights that they enjoy! ugh.
By: ela on October 3, 2008
at 10:45 am
that part of the debate was disappointing, for sure. i can’t imagine how it must make you feel.
By: Kate on October 3, 2008
at 1:18 pm